软苏格拉底

I hate playing games, especially in interpersonal relationships. The feeling of uncertainty always makes me feel uneasy. To avoid this agony, I often take drastic measures to sabotage the relationship and get a clear outcome. For instance, if I'm in a relationship that's stuck in limbo, with no clear commitment or boundaries, I might do something extreme to ruin it, even if it catches the other person off guard and hurts them. I don't want to wait, perhaps for a good outcome. The waiting process is just a hassle, full of uncertainty and anxiety. After sabotaging the relationship, I feel a sense of relief, as if I can finally relax and release the pent-up emotions. This urge stems from my fear of uncertainty. Facing unknown outcomes makes me feel scared and uneasy. By destroying the relationship, I can get a clear outcome, even if it's negative. This sense of comfort may be my psyche telling me: at least I can control everything, at least I can decide the outcome of the relationship. However, this mindset might be harmful. It might cause me to miss out on real opportunities, real love, and friendship. Maybe I should try to accept uncertainty and embrace unknown outcomes. Maybe that's the real path to growth and progress.