Davidzhu

My ex-girlfriend's words still linger in my mind. She would often ask me, 'Am I after your money? How much do you make a month? If I really wanted money, would I need to find someone like you?' At the time, I would laugh awkwardly, thinking she was joking. But looking back, those words are like a sharp knife, piercing my self-esteem. I'm becoming increasingly aware that her attraction to me might have been because I was 'good enough.' Was she really choosing me over a lineup of high-caliber, high-income men? I'm starting to question whether I've been undervaluing myself all along. Maybe I'm not as 'ordinary' as she made me out to be. Maybe I have more sparkle, but I haven't even discovered it myself. I've begun to revisit our past, re-examining our relationship. I've realized that her opinions of me were often based on her expectations and standards, not my actual worth. Her words always hinted at dissatisfaction and disappointment. But I never had the courage to question her, instead trying to meet her expectations. This pattern continued until our breakup, when I finally realized I needed to redefine my values. Now, I understand that my worth shouldn't be defined by others. My sparkle isn't just external, but also internal. My value isn't just about how much I earn, but also my talents, passions, and dreams. I'm trying to discover and showcase my sparkle, no longer relying on others' validation. This transformation has given me a sense of freedom and confidence I've never felt before.