Davidzhu

Right now, I have three girls in front of me, born in '99, '00, and '93. If I just chat with them a bit more aggressively, I can get any one of them 99% of the time. But I'm hesitating! To be honest, since my last breakup three years ago, I've been living the most relaxed and carefree life, and I'm really addicted to the feeling of freedom. I'm really afraid to fall into the emotional trap again! I know that being with anyone would be the same, and the same things would happen all over again. Just thinking about it is a bit boring! I'm starting to doubt my emotional experiences. Do I really want true love, or do I just want a new thrill? I'm afraid to face my own heart and be controlled by my desires. I think back to my ex, remembering the sweet times we had, and also the final fights and breakup. I ask myself, have I gotten used to being alone, used to a life without burdens? Have I lost my longing for love? Brothers, am I messed up? I really don't know what I want. I only know I don't want to fall into the emotional trap again. I want to keep my freedom and independence. But is this thinking just self-deception? I really need your advice and support!